How I feel about people I’ve been close to who have passed and how their departure affects me and I’m scared of losing any one from my nuclear family at this point because I don’t know I how handle it.

Miss 2

Me being scared about how I will feel has made life someway for me. I can’t go a day without thinking about how my life will be especially without my mum. I cry almost everyday. Don’t want to say I’m getting depressed but maybe it’s along the line. I’m turning 22 this month.
Ps: None of my siblings nor parents and even friends know about this feeling I have.