When I was 5 or so, there was this elder female neighbor my mom asks me to stay with when she is out. So once she undress we bath together, I don’t know what I was doing but I did bad things, so when I was 14 I had this big chance of having sex but i was scared of my mom so I didn’t, then I promised myself not to have sex till am 18. At 16 I had a bad influence from one of my elderly friends who taught me how to masturbate which I have stopped, I thank God. I don’t know if it good or bad but it slowed me done mentally and spiritually. So now i am 18 and still haven’t had sex and i am really carving to have one someday, I just wanna know how it feels like.