I see a lot of content involving depression and giving up,i would have said it is not real but I experienced something like that sometimes ago. Don’t expect much from life and be contented with what you have and most importantly go close to God as a youth (very very important the earlier and faster the better) and i can bet my life on it that it will all turn to good stories,now am happy i have peace of mind and i have God and he gave me all i wanted.