I used to beg God to give me money, just a little and hoping that would really make me happy completely but right now, looking at the small money in my account, healing from the death of my boyfriend this year and finishing from university, I have realized that true love is what I really desire. A man to call mine,to love and to hold, someone to laugh and play with intimately. This week I have desperately yearned for love that I had sex with two guys and after it all,hoping maybe we would click but I feel worse. I hope love never happens for me again.