I guess this is the only place I can say how I feel. It hurts to stay committed to someone and it gets all blown away. Right now all I feel is paying back in a thousand folds to the numerous men I meet. Luckily I still have plenty age on my side to dabble into the paying back game. I know i might get hurt but I doubt because the plan is to make them fall for me and ghost them. I know they’ll fall am 100% sure. I know I sound like the devil but then I don’t care. Blame the person who made me like this.