It’s so funny to me how I keep hurting this girl and I love her so much. I’ve always made her go through hell and it’s because of her friend who constantly runs her down and she’s not helping the situation because she makes it hard to trust her. The same friend who also is interested in me. I thought we were in love but she’s obsessed and I can say for sure we have something serious going on. The girl I keep hurting is my first love and I don’t want to hurt the other either. I’m starting to think it’s all a game God save my soul because this seems more like COD than a life. this can’t be my life I started living as a child. I literally avoid them meeting them selves at the same time in my place.