I think I have no one backing me up as a “friend”. No one calls or texts to check on me, not to talk of them visiting me. It’s me doing the visiting and calling and texting. Sometimes I feel like a tool to them, they only contact when they need help, and when I can’t help they look down on me. This has been the situation since high school. It even got bad when someone I used to talk to denied ever knowing me. Honestly I think I have over played my part as a good friend. People don’t deserve my energy 😪