Saw him today after he ghosted me since October- he looked good, quite okay. I even saw a girl like 3 feet away from him. It seems they went to see a movie at Mees palace and he was probably walking her to get a taxi or something. I knew it was him when I saw him, I can tell from a mile away. My heart literally skipped a beat lol, not because I was happy or something. I was so worried about him, I thought something happened to him. I wanted to know if he was okay, I just needed a text or something to know he was okay. I could have texted him but he clearly doesn’t want me around. He said he wanted “to be having sex with me’ he basically wanted me as his friend with benefits. He’s always thinking about himself- so selfish never about me. I’m hurting, I’m hurting so bad. I’m angry at myself, angry that I still have all this feelings for him. Why did he get to move on and I got to be the one that’s stuck? I’m haven’t even cried yet and I’m really worried about that lol, everything is just building up and one day when I finally reach my breaking point I might just end up throwing my self into the river Abi stream behind my house