I’ve been telling my friends indirectly about my plans to commit suicide and they all think I’m joking about it. I’m fed up with everything in life, the only thing keeping me sane is my immediate family. That’s the only thing keeping me from committing suicide. My dad saw me this morning and smiled, he’s always happy whenever I’m home but doesn’t know his daughter is going through a lot of bullshit. The dark side of me is taking over and I might just go on with my plan.