I was sexually abused by my age mate when I was still a child, I remember what the person kept down there in me, only my mother knows about this. I felt pain urinating that night but after I think I was good, I didn’t mention anything about it. Fast forward to now I have a boyfriend and when we try to get intimate, I think I have vaginismus now and it’s really scary now, my boyfriend doesn’t know about this too
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When you are sexually abused you are a victim you are not responsible in any way. You were violated. I pray you visit a doctor at least. Be honest with the doctor. Please don’t live with this in silence. Remember you were a child you are a victim. Please call a local Rape Relief And Sexual Assault Organization and ask them if there is a counselor you can talk too. Also they can probably recommend a physician who will be compassionate. I am so very sorry. Sending big hugs 🤗 and hoping you will reach out. ❤️