My first and last boyfriend of 10 years left me for someone else. He said he broke up with me ‘because he thinks I had something to do with a relative of mine. Not once in those 10 years have I even had as little as a crush on someone else. Now it’s hard for me to fall in love with someone else. I hate him but I still really love him. It’s been a year since we broke up but I still tear up when I think of him. I’ve lost hope in love.

STILL IN LOVE PT 2

I hate myself for still feeling this way for him. I don’t know how to move on. I don’t know if I’d ever fall in love with anyone else. I don’t think I can ever forgive him for causing me this much hurt. Because I honestly don’t deserve this pain. I was so loyal. I can’t believe I still cry because of him. I’ve blocked him everywhere but I still check his posts. I hope I find someone that loves me the way I deserve to be loved.