I felt I had no value to give after two guys forced their way into me and I know this is such a stupid thing to say but 4 years down the line, endless tears, swallowing sleeping pills most nights, failed suicide attempts, PTSD, depression, anxiety, hating myself and hating everyone around me has subsequently turned to investing so much in my personal growth, my brain and my career because I wanted to possess more value than my body and now, I can’t help but think if I would be where I am now if that rape experience didn’t happen.