I just realized I do this thing alot, I have a low self esteem for many reasons so when I meet a guy and we’re vibing and all that the next thing that comes to mind is to introduce them to my friend or talk about her, see she’s a spec so if I notice or think they like her I let go, she’s my excuse because I know I could never win against her 🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️