For the sake of not being blind ,I accepted things to be my fault 2021, convinced myself that if it has lingered, then must be me. I was ready to forget the beginning and the struggle I had choosing people who never gave me a reason to feel they chose me. Then other people who were too tired to help then, now started calling me to complain about the very same thing that was supposed to be my fault. They suddenly see most of the things I was saying. Now I’m supposed to be strong nd pray hard cause God can use me, when my life is so fucked up and I am at the receiving end to pride and blind knowledge.