Three nights straight, sleep is not forthcoming. I am in lots of emotional pain. I have cried myself to the point of choking. The pains not going anywhere. 2021, I hate you. I failed so so much, i cant even try again. Boyfriend is so oblivious, as far as I am concerned I am single from this point on. I hope this pain lessen somehow. I want to start 2022 on a fresh note. I can’t even share what I am going through with anyone. People think I have it easy and are envious. If this is easy, I don’t want it anymore.