Ever since my parents became jobless things has been worst for me as the first child, i struggled to help myself through school and life while carrying the family burden on my shoulder since I was 21 and now I’m 30. My parents are not even 60 yet, the Load is just too much, I can’t even let my boyfriend know all this , the little I earn goes home to them, I’m frustrated with suicidal thoughts but I don’t want to die.