I have been battling with a condition called TMAU, which makes you smell so bad. Every day of my life is painful; people always make a mockery of me; they hold their noses when they are around me, especially in class. Nobody even wants to be with me; I do everything by myself including, lunchtime. They think I don’t bathe, but I take my shower 4 times a day which does not work either. I cry myself to sleep all night asking, my dead mom to rescue me. I have been to the hospital; there’s no cure for it. I’m planning suicide by the end of the year. I’m 21 and a lady. I just want to know what it feels like to be happy even if it takes 2 minutes.