Earlier this year I lost my mum, things were really not going well for me at the time but I managed, after her death I started sleeping with an ex who was married and I started doing well again. Some months later I met a girl I am still in love with but I lost her and everyone in my family because I got involved in fraudulent activities. Now it’s so hard for me to get back up and I am slowly getting back to the depression state but some days I just sit and think that I really do deserve all I am getting right now.