I’m spiraling and I don’t know how to stop it, all I see are the bad aspects of my life, I thought I was better already but it turns out, I’ve only made work my distraction and something happened this week so I had to take a compulsory break from work. Now I feel everything, I just want to lay in bed and not feel anything. I’ve been taking a lot of sleeping pills. I hate me like this but I don’t know how to stop it.