Scared of procreation

My grandma had Huntington’s disease and my dad and all his siblings now have it, it’s a brain degenerative disease that makes one gradually lose their cognitive, mental and physical abilities, there’s a 50% chance I have it. I’m the only child (thank God). I’m in my late 20’s and I keep chasing men away because I do not want to bring kids into this world with the possibility of them inheriting this devil’s disease from me. I’m also too scared to test for the gene because if I find out I have it for sure, it might ruin the few remaining good years I might have. The usually sets in from late 30’s. I just feel better talking about it now because none of my friends or even romantic partner knows I carry this burden.

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