He asked for sex, I refused. Next thing I know, I’m pants down and he is inside. He said I’m not turned on, he said he would turn me on. I was crying and this morrafucker turned me over for doggy, he knows I have been abused once, he just disregards this when he wants to satisfy himself. Anyway, few hours later, I seduced him and we had mind blowing sex. However I can’t get over the first sex. Is that rape? Is it not? I feel used.