Nothing I put my hands work eveer since I came to Indonesia, I don’t want to die a painful death, I live on the 23rd floor, i want to jump but I feel it will be painful. No one to help. I read the recent story SOON and it is similar to mine. I am tired of this life. I want to come back home but I am stuck in this country because I don’t eveen have the money to comee back, my rent is due and I will be chased out in the morning with no where to go, no food in my house I starve and nothing works for me, I just want to end it all and rest, I really wish could see something that is less painful so I can end it all.