The death of my mum 17 years ago has cost me a lot of mental challenges, i was just 6, memories so fresh in my head, since then I’ve always been second best to my father, my step mum and now my lover. He admitted this to me a while ago when his ex came and he stopped me from going out with him. His words were i would always chose her over you, God i felt a sting in my heart not because i didn’t know but because he admitted it. My mum would have been the only one to truly love me if she were alive. When no one is watching i would cry eyes out later tonight.