I think I should leave this here. I’m not sure how I will feel after but I wish I can feel relieved and better. I’m 21, I grew up from a violent family that every time I have the opportunity to leave for school, I don’t want to come back home. I’m a graduate now and I have been hanging around to avoid seeing my mum been molested and beaten up 😭. She has packed away from the house but the thing has extended to spiritual fight and I’m my mum best friend. She only explains the battle she fights both in her dream and in real with my dad life to me. If she dies I will be left with my siblings no family members, she sent me to school, I never went to a public school till tertiary level but my mum can hardly feed herself now. I, out of my menial job send money to her sometimes. Now I’m tired of seeing her breakdown always, she doesn’t sleep, always praying. I’m scared of dating because I’m scared of marriage😭😭😭. I’m tired because I can’t even look after myself. I don’t want to lose my mum and anytime I imagine this, i cry myself out. I wonder what my other siblings will be going through if I’m going through this. I thought about suicide yesterday and leaving a note for her so she wouldn’t be attacked by her in-laws. I will send a note to all of them through emails. I know God will fight for her definitely, she’s a strong woman. I want her to take care of my siblings so well. I have #50,000 in my account she can feed for the month and maybe cope till whenever customers come around again. I’m off the gram, thank you😭.
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Wow. That’s a lot. I can’t begin to imagine. My heart is broken, reading this. But this suicide is not an option. Think of your mom losing you. You are her best friend, she can’t lose you. Please, wait a little while longer. Have some little faith. Things can only get better. Listen, nothing lasts forever, not even pain. And change is constant. Things can change from bad to good at any time. All it takes for a miracle to occur is a single moment. Just one moment and a new chapter, a better chapter emerges. Please keep praying. God answers prayers. And in His time, all your requests will manifest. Keep fighting. You can’t come this far to lose the battle. I love you. I love your mom, she is a strong woman. I’m sending every one of you light 💡 and love ❤️. Stay safe. Stay strong. God be with you. I love you. You matter to me. Hugs 🤗
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How do you expect her to survive and be strong knowing that her own child committed suicide? Put yourself in her shoes… You and your mum are gonna come out fine if you two stay and team up against all odds… Stay with her, support her in everyway you can…. You would be just fine. Suicide is a pamanent solution to a temporal problem.