I had him then I lost him. I wanted him to be there real bad. I did not know I pushed him away , he left slowly . I was so concerned about all I wanted in a relationship not appreciating all I had and all he’s doing. I tried to get him to want me back but all my efforts failed. He still comments on my status, I really want more and he knows that but he’s mute and not even replying the texts that matter. This all or nothing way of loving has got me sleeping without him and it hurts.