A lot has been going through my mind lately . I lost a close friend last year , she was more like a sister to me . The cause of her death is still unknown and that even baffles me the more. I can barely sleep , thoughts of her keep coming to me . I could see her in my dreams . Her mother is a shadow of herself now because that girl was the only shining light in their family . Sometimes I feel the mother thinks I know what killed her daughter or maybe my mind is playing games on me . This month , my aunt lost her baby (the baby was premature). When my late friend’s mother came to see my aunt in the hospital , immediately she saw me she got this look that I don’t really understand . I started having this feeling that she was talking bad about me like why are people dying around me sorts of