Sometimes I feel very sad when I remember all the mistakes I have done in life especially the men I would have married maybe I would have done with child bearing. But here I am in lonely as hell with no man to call mine.
Most times I feel I should just end it, maybe kill myself or travel out of the country Nigeria. I just wish I could leave and start a new life.
I am tired of my life right now. I wake up sad everyday, I just wish I can end this life
Connotare 
No gain in suicide, just pains to you siblings and loved ones. You can travel out yeah, it’s a good decision, but whatever it is now, is already. You can’t change the past, so try to focus on the future. We all make mistakes, sending you happiness & love.