I trusted them with my life , I could take a bullet for them , I ruined my schedules for them , I always reached out financially and otherwise , I made sure they were comfortable being in my life but then a day came and things changed . They betrayed my trust , worst still they didn’t feel any remorse . They felt too proud to apologize , they watched me cry myself to sleep . I got so depressed and suicidal . They wrecked my life without even trying . My bestfriend and my girlfriend broke my heart and my trust at the same time (that was my first heartbreak) . It was massive , I didn’t get it one bit . I tried to forgive them because I cared about them . It’s been over a year and my life has not remained the same . My heart is racing towards revenge , I can’t move on . I’m a sorry mess . I have lots of insecurities now and I feel very worthless . I don’t have any self love . Revenge is what I’m aching for . I know I’d feel a lot better when we’re even , when I know they felt the kinda pain they inflicted on me . I just can’t let it go