I feel useless.
I have been in a relationship for the past 6 years I don’t even have a perfume or watch to say it’s from my man. Because we both live with parents , he books rooms for sex. And after sex we won’t talk till he wants it again. I was away for studies for a year he cheated and got a baby boy who happens to be his priority now. He has nothing to do with the baby mama because she got him arrested once. I have tired to let go , I just don’t know how to. On the other hand there is a guy that has been spoiling me lately but I know it’s not leading to anything , I had sex with him it’s been mind blowing. He claims to be in love with me. But for me it’s just sex I don’t even want the gifts. He is too obsessed and that’s not good for me. I will be relocating in January but I feel guilty and useless. I’m fucking two guys I don’t see a future with. I’m disgusted by my actions I can’t tell anyone I don’t know how to break up because both of them go the extreme when ever I try to. I know God is ashamed to me. I can’t even pray because when ever l close my eyes , the guilt creeps in .