Am in my 30s, have never had any emotional attractions to a guy, gosh! I’ve tried but I can’t seem to. Now I have pressures from every angle, family, friends and even standby-ers. I feel like if I marry a man I will frustrate him because I won’t know what to do with him about sex. I HATE SEX WITH MEN. I have tried, started smoking weed so I will be numb when I do it but for how long will I do that I a marriage? I have men frolicking around me, my mom is so invested in praying out her eyes that I should find a husband soon but all I want is have a child, builds career and live a quiet private life. And yes, I like women! If I lived abroad I would marry one and despite the series of mind wrecking heart breaks they bring me I feel complete when am with them. Now I avoid home and my mom just to avoid talking about marriage.