I’m over 30 years, nothing seems working right for me, like there’s a force blocking me from my greatness.

Nothing is working right!!!
No good job
Zero love life

And then people assume I’m fine and having it all rosy cos I wear good but fake smile when I’m out.

I have Suicidal thoughts always but then my death will cause more harm to my family, my mum most especially.

I’m losing it
I’m getting tired.