Why do I resent him so much yet love him so deeply? I feel like he’s still playing games. He never keeps to his words, not straightforward & I’ve become so insecure especially whenever I don’t hear from him. Each day my resentment towards him doubles, maybe because I know he’ll never be the man I want him to be. He brings out this level of rage I never knew existed in me to the point that I’ve become verbally abusive yet he won’t let me leave. Even sat him down to explain why I think our relationship has become toxic & I no longer like the person I am when I’m with him but he’ll beg & beg, still won’t act right. Am I really asking for too much? maybe I should accept my fate but I’m so afraid I might end up murdering him someday.