My tired is tired. Why can’t I be found worthy, I care and show affection but the moment I express how I feel or mess up it’s no mercy for me. Why can’t I be treated the same way I treat him, why??? It’s easy to say “leave” but it’s a lot harder than it sounds. I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of pretending to be okay, when I’m dying inside. I can’t even tell anybody and I cannot not care because that’s not me. I need saving…