I feel pain, October till now, it gets worse. I pushed the best man in the world away with my paranoia/ptsd! Now he doesn’t want anything to do with me, I wanna d!e so bad, been cutting myself to make the pains go away, but it’s not working , I rely on pills to sleep. Found out I’m pregnant few days ago and he told me to get rid of it, after all it’s not my first abortion so I’ll be fine💔) My family and friends don’t know I’m pregnant so I’ll run away and have this child so I can give all my love to him/her. I’ll end up a single mother like my mum💔💔