I’m so scared that I don’t know how to love. I want to be everything he wants. I have a 2 month break and I’m trying really hard to become a better person in 2 months. I check websites, I watch YouTube videos, I follow Instagram handles, I take notes, I make lists of books to buy. All these on love, relationships, self-esteem, confidence nd all of it. I want to give you the same measure of love you give back to you and more. And I want to be that spec that I’m not. I don’t want to loose you. I don’t know anything about you. I’m not doing all thses so you could love me because I know you do. I just want to do whatever so you know I love you. I know you doubt that I do.