I want to die so much this minute, next I’m soo happy and be like delay is not denial. This is becoming denial o, after 4 years, no admission 😂. I’m tired of short period happiness, can’t I just be happy for a whole day or hour. There’s nothing God can’t do I believe. I’ll use this to tell a story. I swear I wish I could disappear for months like lifeless and come back to life. Living through all this has been hell and I’m only 19. Haa God😭.