It’s really easy for people who haven’t been abused to tell you to move on . You don’t get to tell someone how to react to pain even if you’ve been in that position . Pain hits differently for everyone and not everyone is able to deal with it . I had suicidal and murderous thoughts earlier . I had nightmares but I’m progressing . Though I’m hurt occasionally , barely having alone time doesn’t completely numb the pain and he’s out there happy and merry I get to be the one with the psychological scars.